NaPoWriMo 2015 ~ A Writer’s Musings; Surrender

I apologize for being a bit silent these past few days; I was out of the house this weekend, and as a result, I couldn’t post … and I forgot to write a poem Saturday. Or, rather, I was too exhausted to. So today I present to you two poems I wrote yesterday, one to make-up for Saturday and one for yesterday.  

April 12, 2015 (for April 11) ~ A Writer’s Musings 

Why is it that this thing I love so much—

this word-weaving, truth-telling—

is so hard, so often feels like not enough?

 

Why is it that this call upon my soul—

this ache to spill on paper all my heart—

is so broken, so often far from whole?

 

Why is it that this breathless beauty—

this adventure come to vibrant life—

is so ugly, so often a grudging duty?

 

I throw the pen across the room—

this drudgery not what I wanted!—

and groan that my joy is my doom.

 

Then You whisper that this fight—

this struggle to find the perfect words—

is what makes the art so full of light.

 

You whisper that all my straining —

this ceaseless struggle for beauty—

is what creates tales of truth reigning.

 

You whisper that my lack of skill—

this humiliating weakness I can’t overcome—

is what lets You my words to fill.

 

I pick up the pen, set it on the page—

this is what You’ve made me for!—

and continue to write Your story grand.

~ * ~ 

April 12, 2015  ~  Surrender 

My hands are clenched around a sword—

or so I think—

but I cannot see that this deadly weapon

is but a stick,

a child’s toy that can never defeat

the dark I hate.

 

My hands are clenched around my dreams—

or so I think—

but I cannot see that these cherished goals

are but shadows

of what would give me a joy

unimaginable.

 

Help me unclench my hands from this weapon

that hurts just me

and see that the only way to be victorious

is to give up,

to hand the sword over to You,

Who already won.

 

Help me unclench my hands from these dreams

that destroy me

and see that the only way to be satisfied

is to give up,

to hand over my plans, my future to You,

Who is enough.

 

Show me that the only way to victory and joy

is surrender.

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